She was there for me when my mom died. She was there for me when my dad was abusive. She was there with me when my sister and I lived out of a car. She was there for me when I just didn’t think life was worth it anymore.

casey reading


My first apartment, when I graduated elementary school, middle school and high school, my first day of college, the day I graduated. She was there for me. Holidays, birthdays, vacations, good days, bad days, rainy days, sunny days, road trips. She was there. Always there. Not just physically. She was emotionally there. I was greeted with the same enthusiasm each and every time I walked in the door. When a guy broke my heart she was the first friend sitting beside me while I cried. She’d cuddled with me and made sure that I was ok. She laid in bed with me when I was sick. Sat by my side after I almost lost my life in a car accident. When all my friends abandoned me she didn’t. She reassured me that it would be ok. That they were the assholes not me. She had seen me at my worst and at my best and after all we’ve been through, she never once judged me.

Then it became my time to be there for her. When she got sick I took out credit cards just to pay the vet bills. I figured I would get a fourth job if I didn’t make enough money. There was no price limit on her life in my eyes. I spent days researching ways to get her help. Cancer is a real nasty thing, I repeated in my head throughout the eday. We succeeded the first time, but as we all know cancer has a way of sneaking back.

casey at the vet

When it was my turn, I was there for her during her long battle, her surgery and when she took her final breath. Those moments will live inside me forever. Unfortunately the only thing in life that is certain is death, but it’s how we deal with it that makes it uncertain. I know that it’s going to be a long time before my heart heals from this. She took a lot of me when she left.

My best friends name was Casey. We gave her many nicknames over the years; Brown Eyes, Biggie, Piggie and Boogay. Don’t ask.  Her hobbies included; eating, car rides, hanging out on the couch, running in the backyard, hanging out on the porch and her favorite, going to the beach.

She wasn’t like most peoples best friends. This best friend had four legs. Casey came into my life when I was only nine years old and left me at age 24. She took her final breaths Saturday June 14th at around 2:30 p.m. 13 years and nines days after I lost my mom. This has been the hardest death for me to handle since then. She’s what got me through my mother’s death. In a sense, she was all I had left of my mother. She was her dog. Now, that she’s gone it seems that I’ve lost that little piece of my mother. The flames out for good.

me and casey at the beach

She could put a smile on the saddest of faces. That’s what I love about dogs. No matter the situation your dog is always happy to see you.

Each and every dog is unique and has its own personality. Casey’s personality affected my life profoundly. My relationship with her was one of the longest relationships I’ve held and she taught me many valuable lessons over the past 15 years. She, like all dogs, had the ability to live in the present moment. Dogs don’t regret their past or worry about their future. She taught me to appreciate and focus on what’s happening now. You can’t change your past or control your future. Dogs must be smarter than humans because they have that idea down pat.

Unconditional love, living in the moment, loyalty.  For a dog, every morning is Christmas morning. Every walk is the best walk, every meal is like Thanksgiving, and every game is the super bowl. We can learn so much by observing the way our pets rejoice in life’s simplest moments. Take time every day to celebrate and cherish every moment in your life….just like Casey did. So fly high my angel pup. All dogs go to heaven right? I now have two beautiful angels keeping watch over me at all times. What more could a girl ask for?

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